Jumping on a ‘runaway train’

Jumping on a ‘runaway train’

30th October 2020

I have been in communication with Gary my BOW tutor (with feedback on A1) and on Zoom with MY CS Ariadne today. There has been a change in my thinking about the degree which I summarise here – I realise that this is contingent but it is where I am now.

  • It is about the “uniqueness of context…and how you do it” says Ariadne. I am starting to realise that there is a process which is more considered and reflective than what I have done before. Previously it has been about ‘getting it done,’ all be it with some escapades and experiments, but that is not enough here and will not help me to become a “Photographer.” That development and process needs to be evidenced in my work that shows my thinking and analysis
  • I need to think for myself to develop my own critical faculty. I have been studying Sturken and Cartwrights ‘Practices of Looking’ and ‘Contest of Meaning’ and becoming adept at analysing will help me in assessing what I produce and what I think about my research. I think that is probably the most pressing need which will help me greatly so I will change tack slightly to do some of that work of CS now (A1).
  • I pitched my submission quite low for AI BOW but realise from the feedback that the expected standard of approach and submission is much higher. I need to adapt to that, and I think I can.
  • There is a tsunami of work to address. I need to invest a lot now to reduce my anxiety and uncertainty which I recognise is a ‘normal’ feature of entering this liminal space of ‘moving up’ in a degree.
  • I commented that I had “stepped on the study train now” in my research journey, but Ariadne came back immediately with “The train has already left the station Morris!” That is the truth, it is picking up speed and it feels like I have jumped on a ‘runaway train’ that can’t be stopped. I will try and enjoy the ride.

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